Ugh, I’m a slacker. And not just on updating this thing. I’ve become comfortable and I think that might be the biggest reason for falling back into my old habits.
My last class of teacher training was a little over a month ago, I found salvation, learned a lot of things about myself, and then just slipped back into everything. I’ve only taught two classes since and even my yoga practice has fallen to 1-2 times per week. I specifically went to get my certification so I wouldn’t slack! Shame on me. My 3 hour written test is next week. I have a lot of material to cover. And requirements to meet.
I’m just too comfortable. Maybe I like my new job too much that I no longer desire much else. I don’t care if I have to work until 9:30 at night because I like doing it. I no longer go home with a desire to do something else. Which is good and bad, I think. I need to get uncomfortable again. I’ve been complaining the past few years about how I’ve been so unsatisfied with everything. Maybe that was a good thing for me. I need a challenge. At my job everyone likes me, I do a great job, and for the very first time in my life I’m not “learning on the job” or feel that I’m not qualified. It’s too good. I’m not scared of my job security, I’m not looking for a second job, I’m not desiring to be somewhere else. Which is great, right? Except I have no motivation! Motivate me! Haha. Wow I feel like such a bitch for writing that.
My diet has slipped a bit too. Or maybe without being constantly lectured about being a vegetarian I’ve just pushed everything out of my mind again. Ignorance is bliss. It’s also about fitting in as well. I’m making friends at work and going out to lunch and I don’t want to have people have to accommodate and I don’t want to have to explain myself. It’s hard. But I’m still the same weight and still feel good and now I can eat chicken nuggets without wanting to die, so that’s a plus.
Anyway, I’m going to try to be better. Some of the girls are having a study session this weekend for the yoga test, so I’ll go to that and perhaps my mindset will change.