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Slacking

Ugh, I’m a slacker. And not just on updating this thing. I’ve become comfortable and I think that might be the biggest reason for falling back into my old habits.

My last class of teacher training was a little over a month ago, I found salvation, learned a lot of things about myself, and then just slipped back into everything. I’ve only taught two classes since and even my yoga practice has fallen to 1-2 times per week. I specifically went to get my certification so I wouldn’t slack! Shame on me. My 3 hour written test is next week. I have a lot of material to cover. And requirements to meet.

I’m just too comfortable. Maybe I like my new job too much that I no longer desire much else. I don’t care if I have to work until 9:30 at night because I like doing it. I no longer go home with a desire to do something else. Which is good and bad, I think. I need to get uncomfortable again. I’ve been complaining the past few years about how I’ve been so unsatisfied with everything. Maybe that was a good thing for me. I need a challenge. At my job everyone likes me, I do a great job, and for the very first time in my life I’m not “learning on the job” or feel that I’m not qualified. It’s too good. I’m not scared of my job security, I’m not looking for a second job, I’m not desiring to be somewhere else. Which is great, right? Except I have no motivation! Motivate me! Haha. Wow I feel like such a bitch for writing that.

My diet has slipped a bit too. Or maybe without being constantly lectured about being a vegetarian I’ve just pushed everything out of my mind again. Ignorance is bliss. It’s also about fitting in as well. I’m making friends at work and going out to lunch and I don’t want to have people have to accommodate and I don’t want to have to explain myself. It’s hard. But I’m still the same weight and still feel good and now I can eat chicken nuggets without wanting to die, so that’s a plus.

Anyway, I’m going to try to be better. Some of the girls are having a study session this weekend for the yoga test, so I’ll go to that and perhaps my mindset will change.

Self Reflection

It’s interesting to think where I was before I started the whole teacher training thing and where I am now. It could be the training, it could be other factors in my life, but as of right now, I’m just completely happy and content.

When I started training in late April / early May I was in a much different place. I had actually decided to go through with the yoga training because I felt like I needed something to “get back into life.” I was beaten down, relationships with friends were kind of falling apart, and I just didn’t feel good emotionally. And I guess that’s how I’ve been for the last year and a half (since my brother died).

Now, I feel like I have a lot of things together. I realize how much positivity can really affect not only you, but others around you. I’ve let go a lot of the negative energy around me. I’m eating healthier. I’m exercising more.

I started a new job where I don’t know anyone. It’s a fresh start. It’s like starting college where you can be whoever you want to be. You don’t have to be the person you were in high school. I’ve let go of everything that’s brought me down in the past. And it’s only been about two weeks and I’m starting to meet people that I think I can be really good friends with even outside of work.

What was really amazing is how much my friends have noticed my change. One of my good friends told me the other day, “It’s nice to see you so happy.” And I was just thinking… yeah… it is. 🙂

Class Training Completed

It’s been eleven days since I updated. Booo. Shame on me. I started a new job, but more on that later.

I completed my last physical class for Yoga Teacher Training a week ago on Sunday. Over the course of the weekend everyone in my class (eight girls) each taught a class. So… I basically took 6 classes (with me teaching one and me being the assistant on another) over the weekend. I was tiiiired.

But hey, I taught a class in front of my teacher! And my class! The hubby came as well as 5 of my dearest friends. I can’t even put in words how much in meant to me that soooo many people I love came to the class. It helped my nerves seeing people that I loved.

I messed up a couple of times, but the feedback was actually 100% positive. I felt kind of weird and almost wanted to critique myself… Is that weird? I guess I can be a bit of a perfectionist sometimes, but I also feel like I didn’t deserve to necessarily get that good of feedback.

So now we have a 3 hour written test coming up at the end of August and graduation right before Labor Day weekend. Before then, I have to do my volunteer hours and read a shit ton of stuff. (Oh yeah, and I’m also taking an online class).

But yeah, I started a new job a week ago on Monday. And I have to say, I am really enjoying myself. It’s longer hours and less pay, but I’m much happier and the people are great. My editor is so awesome and I am so lucky to work with him. And everyone else has been AWESOME and appreciative. AND since I started I haven’t been sexually harassed ONCE! Not once! It’s kinda cool.

Anyway, off topic here. But that’s why I’ve been quiet. I’m working at an animation company now and I feel like a lot of those people can use some yoga ;p. I’m hoping that one I get my certification I could start a class before or after work or something. But I do worry a little bit about being all in gym clothes with people I work with. However, since I have yet to be sexually harassed it could potentially be OK.

OFF TOPIC – FAMILY VACATION

Here’s my first Off Topic post. I’m always nervous about writing these because I wonder if anyone actually cares. But this is really my only outlet to document things at the moment so if you don’t care about my trip to Disneyland with my nieces and nephew… well you can just skip this.

I suppose it’s not completely off topic because it’s all about love, and love is a big yoga emotion, right?

I’m going to start out by saying something very sad. I’m just going to put this out there. My brother passed away in November of 2012. I always hate bringing it up. I’m OK with talking about it now, but I feel like it just brings down the mood of whoever I’m talking to. It ruins the casual small talk. “So do you have any siblings?” “Uhhh… no.” That’s usually how I handle it. But anyway. Putting it on the table. Moving on. This is a happy post.

I have 2 nieces and 1 nephew that live in Alaska with my sister-in-law and her boyfriend. Her boyfriend has 2 boys that live in Oklahoma with their mother normally. So they planned a visit to Southern California with ALL of the children. First 3 days in Disneyland, 1 day in Legoland, and 1 day in Seaworld. Then we rented a house in Venice Beach for all of us to stay at. They were here a total of 8 days. The Mr. and I were a tiny bit worried how were were going to handle 5 children. But it turned out to be one of the best experiences we could have hoped for.

This was the first time we met my sister-in-law’s boyfriend and they were both really nervous about it. I have no hard feelings what-so-ever. I don’t expect her to just be sad the rest of her life. In fact, I was really happy for her that she found someone. She deserves to be happy. But anyway, the hubby and I really, really ended up liking her boyfriend (i’d be friends with him on my own) AND his children were amazing too. I was actually kind of sad that his kids weren’t actually my nephews because I grew really attached to them.

Disneyland was the first stop. Mr. DestinationYogi and I went down to Anaheim immediately after work. They had taken the red eye from Alaska and were already down there and had spent a little bit of time in the park before taking a nap in the afternoon.

It had been about a year since I saw the kids so it was like Christmas for me. I love these kids like they were my own and it really kills me inside that I can only see them once a year. My oldest niece I feel is like a clone of me. She looks just like me and has a very similar personality. She also has the same exact pickiness in eating food that I had when I was her age.

Seeing them was amazing and getting showered in hugs was a great feeling. One of the most interesting things is to me is that the kids don’t really remember the things that we’ve done together. Like any specific events. “Do you remember when we did this?” “No.” But they remembered that they loved me. I guess you can forget events but you don’t really forget feelings.

The hubby and I love Disneyland. We’ve been a bunch of times, have an annual pass, and even got engaged at Disney. With 5 children it was a much different experience. We didn’t do half of the things we normally were able to do, but we didn’t care. The trip was about them and making them happy. And somehow, the fact that we were making them happy was much better and more rewarding than if we went by ourselves and got to do everything we wanted to do.

Legoland was interesting because it was a little more child-like than you would think. Or maybe it was just about at child-like as you would think. But I’m glad that we went for the first time with children because it’s really not for 2 adults to go to on their own. My nephew is obsessed with Legos and this was a huge treat for him. He was also the only one old enough to do a special robot building this, so Mr. DestinationYogi took him for a special nephew-uncle bonding thing.

The hubby and I skipped out on Seaworld and came back early to get the house ready in Venice. The kids came up after Seaworld and we grilled some dinner and hung out in the backyard pool and hot tub.

The next couple days were just relaxing which was what we all needed. On the last full day, I took my sister-in-law and oldest niece into Hollywood and Beverly Hills while the boys and my 2-year-old niece went to the beach.

Our first stop in Hollywood was the set of “Dog with a Blog” which airs on the Disney Channel. An old co-worker of mine works on the show and she gave us a private tour of the set. We got a to meet a couple of the actors as well as the dog on the show. My niece was excited, but there was a lot of waiting around so she was a little bored. Overall, I think she enjoyed it.

Then we went into downtown Hollywood. Had lunch, did a bit of shopping… But the real fun was when we went to Beverly Hills. I thought my niece would be really bored because it was Rodeo Drive and the shopping was really for grown-ups. However she LOVED it. She’s going to be such a diva. We went into Tiffany’s jewelry store and she was so excited and called it “Heaven.” She loved looking at the shoes, jewelry, and handbags – and she’s only 8 years old!! I’m glad she had such a good time.

Saying goodbye was one of the hardest things. Not knowing when I’m going to see them again. Spending the most time with them that I ever had. Plus making a new friend (my sister-in-law’s boyfriend) and meeting 2 new children that I grew to love. But I am so thankful for every minute that I got to spend with every single person on that trip. It really made my life and realized how LUCKY I am to have such wonderful people in my life. I know we’ll see them next summer, but every year in a child’s life is a LONG time and they change so much from year to year. It’s hard. But they are the best and I know they are happy where they are.

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